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Is Being In Love Different than Just Loving Someone?

Love is a word people toss around all the time. Someone could love Michael Jackson's music, love a certain restaurant or love an article of clothing. However, each of the aforementioned uses of the word love are different than being in love.

While I've loved many women in my life and had love for certain individuals, being in love is something entirely different. I've only experienced that a handful of times and even that's exaggerating.

In my 34 years I've only had three-and-a-half official girlfriends (that two-month debacle of a relationship in college only half counts) but oftentimes what we think is that in love kind of love isn't always the case in retrospect. In fact, my current girlfriend of the past two years and I have often had conversations about loving each other to death and wanting to spend our lives together but neither of us would describe it as being in love. That was until the night of August 26 when I dropped down on one knee and asked her to be my wife.

I'll let that sink in for a minute before I continue...

In case you missed that, two weeks ago I proposed to the woman I love and she said, "Yes, duh!"

From the moment I made the decision that I wanted her to be my wife some three months ago, I knew that I loved her but that in love feeling didn’t truly come until I popped the proverbial question, “Will you marry me,” through tear-soaked eyes. As my voice cracked and saline-filled droplets traveled across my cheeks, I felt it. I didn’t just love this woman I was in love with her and I was unafraid to let her know that.

My gamble paid off.

Not even looking down at the bauble I placed on her finger, she said, “I didn’t think I could love you more than I did already.”

That’s all the conformation that I needed. I knew she didn’t say that because of some ring, but at that moment—right there in my mother’s homeland of St. Lucia—we were both in love.

I know it may sound weird to some that I would not only make the decision to propose but go through the process of shopping for and buying an engagement ring before having that in love feeling, but that’s my process and I’ve never been more sure about anything in my life before. I won’t say anything cliché like, “I can’t seem my life without her,” but this is the woman that balances me out. She understands me and all of my quirks. To her they’re “cute.”

I’ve always known that it would take a special woman to not only come into my life but be a pivotal part of it and she fits the bill to a tee. She’s my prototype… my confidante… my partner… my best friend… my soon-to-be-wife… my everything.

I don’t just love her, I am completely and utterly in love with her.

Have you ever been in love? Do you think there’s a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone? If so, what’s the difference(s)? How many times have you truly been in love? Do you think people use the word love too lightly these days? Are you surprised to hear about my engagement? Do you think it’s “weird” that I was ready to propose before having that in love feeling? Have you ever been in a relationship where you loved the person but wasn’t in love? Do you have to be in love to be happy in a relationship?

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  • http://andsoitislive.net/wordpress KaNisa

    Yaaaay! *shakes pom poms Congrats!

    All these bloggers getting engaged and thangs...

    Definitely a difference between loving and being in love with someone. To me loving someone is like loving family...wanting what's best for them, being there for them, even when you don't necessarily like them very much.

    Being in love with someone is all of the above, plus having no doubt that they'd do the same for you...or even not caring that they may not.

  • http://andsoitislive.net/wordpress KaNisa

    Yaaaay! *shakes pom poms Congrats!

    All these bloggers getting engaged and thangs...

    Definitely a difference between loving and being in love with someone. To me loving someone is like loving family...wanting what's best for them, being there for them, even when you don't necessarily like them very much.

    Being in love with someone is all of the above, plus having no doubt that they'd do the same for you...or even not caring that they may not.

  • Shannon

    I was in love exactly once in my life before now. That man was the love of my life and up until July 2009, he was my husband. I never thought I could ever love like that and when he closed his eyes for good, I never thought I could ever love again.

    For a long time, I couldn't and didn't. I couldn't bring myself to get close, to open myself up to someone without running the risk of being hurt or disappointed. But those are the risks of love; if you open up and let yourself be vulnerable, I promise you will be disappointed and hurt from time to time and that's not a bad thing.

    No couple has a perfect relationship because no one is perfect. We all have our fault, flaw, quirks and other idiosyncrasies and we learn to love and embrace them--or at least tolerate them--in the one person we believe is our soulmate and over time, each and every time we look at our beloved, we see no wrong and love grows stronger.

    My new beau told me how he felt about me last night; how he couldn't stop thinking about me, how much he missed me when he was working (he is a pilot) and how he just didn't feel right without me. He told me how special I was to him and how lucky he felt to have found me. I felt so special and so beautiful...

    I've loved many, but being in love is in a class all by itself.

    *Congrats on the upcoming nuptials, Ans! Did Throne and Shay get married already? If so, congrats to the happy couple!

    • Anonymous

      yup, Tron & Shay got hitched back in June. Good to hear you're in a better space, Shannon. Congrats as well :)

    • Anonymous

      yup, Tron & Shay got hitched back in June. Good to hear you're in a better space, Shannon. Congrats as well :)

      • Shannon

        Thanks. I took some time off and decided to start seeing a therapist and then I started focusing on my career and education and started living life again...and then Dan came along. I had my doubts, but now I know he is serious about me and he wants to be with me and I was finally able to relax and just surrender to his love...and it worked. Over time, I stopped being so bitter and angry and simply enjoyed my man's company.

        Another thing: I had to really work on this one, but now I feel like Dan has his own place in my heart and isn't going to take John's place. They are two different men and while I will always love my husband, I still have plenty of room in my heart for Dan. And I can think about our future together and feel at peace about it.

        *Sorry I missed out on the wedding, Tron and Shay! Did you post any pictures on the blog site? I'm sure it was a beautiful wedding.

        • Anonymous

          GREAT to hear. Remember, our journey hear began with you being labeled the "angry Black woman"? :P

          Tron did a pre-wedding post here where Shay later posted links to FB pics.

          This is Tron's post: http://nwso.net/2011/06/10/getting-married-tomorrow/

          Shay (God's Gift) added like 4 links near bottom of comments section

  • Shannon

    I was in love exactly once in my life before now. That man was the love of my life and up until July 2009, he was my husband. I never thought I could ever love like that and when he closed his eyes for good, I never thought I could ever love again.

    For a long time, I couldn't and didn't. I couldn't bring myself to get close, to open myself up to someone without running the risk of being hurt or disappointed. But those are the risks of love; if you open up and let yourself be vulnerable, I promise you will be disappointed and hurt from time to time and that's not a bad thing.

    No couple has a perfect relationship because no one is perfect. We all have our fault, flaw, quirks and other idiosyncrasies and we learn to love and embrace them--or at least tolerate them--in the one person we believe is our soulmate and over time, each and every time we look at our beloved, we see no wrong and love grows stronger.

    My new beau told me how he felt about me last night; how he couldn't stop thinking about me, how much he missed me when he was working (he is a pilot) and how he just didn't feel right without me. He told me how special I was to him and how lucky he felt to have found me. I felt so special and so beautiful...

    I've loved many, but being in love is in a class all by itself.

    *Congrats on the upcoming nuptials, Ans! Did Throne and Shay get married already? If so, congrats to the happy couple!

  • Shannon

    I was in love exactly once in my life before now. That man was the love of my life and up until July 2009, he was my husband. I never thought I could ever love like that and when he closed his eyes for good, I never thought I could ever love again.

    For a long time, I couldn't and didn't. I couldn't bring myself to get close, to open myself up to someone without running the risk of being hurt or disappointed. But those are the risks of love; if you open up and let yourself be vulnerable, I promise you will be disappointed and hurt from time to time and that's not a bad thing.

    No couple has a perfect relationship because no one is perfect. We all have our fault, flaw, quirks and other idiosyncrasies and we learn to love and embrace them--or at least tolerate them--in the one person we believe is our soulmate and over time, each and every time we look at our beloved, we see no wrong and love grows stronger.

    My new beau told me how he felt about me last night; how he couldn't stop thinking about me, how much he missed me when he was working (he is a pilot) and how he just didn't feel right without me. He told me how special I was to him and how lucky he felt to have found me. I felt so special and so beautiful...

    I've loved many, but being in love is in a class all by itself.

    *Congrats on the upcoming nuptials, Ans! Did Throne and Shay get married already? If so, congrats to the happy couple!

  • Kemz

    Congrats! This was incredibly sweet and touching. Thanks for sharing : )

    At 26 (soon to be 27) I've never been in love however i've had a lot of love and deep feelings for 1 person in particular in my past. I don't think you have to be "in love" in a relationship to be happy...happiness is a choice! - some folks swear up and down that they're in love but they're miserable as heck in their relationship. I do think people use the word very loosely at times but that's coming from the perspective of someone who rarely throws that word around except when it comes to family and close friends. I'm pleasantly surprised to hear about your engagement! and too happy for you two. Yes, I do think it's weird that you proposed before the "in love" feeling but like you said, that's your process.

  • http://liferequiresmorechocolate.blogspot.com/ sunt97

    Congrats on the engagement!!!  I have loved many but only been "in love" once.  It consumed me and was a high.  When we broke up, it felt like there was a death.  I do believe we use the word love to easily.  Mostly because we feel something more for some people than like.  We automatically think it must be some sort of love.  Of course you do not have to be in love to have a good relationship.  Mutual feelings of respect and liking can get you a long way before someone starts thinking, when are we taking this to the next level.  Being in love does not always mean being happy as the person I was in love with made me miserable half the time.  Good luck!!!

    Peace, Love and Chocolate,
    Tiffany

  • Kitty1026

    Congrats on your engagement! :o )

  • Lana

    Wow!! Congratulations!!!! Whomever the lucky lady is she is very blessed right now. I dont know you personally but I've read your blog for almost a year and a half so I feel like you're a friend in my head lol You've always seemed introspective, balanced and humble those are some good qualities for a man to provide to a deserving woman as you've described above. Congrats again!

  • http://twitter.com/ChloeRayne516 GirlSixx

    "Do you think there’s a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone?"

    You know I've been saying this to people for years about there being a differnce between loving someone and being in love. OF COURSE there is a difference

  • http://profiles.google.com/danigurl207 DiDi Gurl

    Oh that is WONDERFUL!

    I've been in love-in love three times in my life. Twice with the same person. And though it's breaking my heart right now. When this over and I put everything back together again,  I'll do it all over again. To me life without love is emotionally empty and lonely.

  • Rastaman

    Congratulations Playa!
    Now you are going to have to wear them big boy pants all the time.  LOL!
    I got a sense the last time I talked you about her that you were probably headed down that road but like most men you needed to establish some professional foundation first before you took that leap.   Good move there is no time like the present.  
    What I have continued to learn is that life is like the ocean, ebbing and flowing and as such the strength of our feelings ebbs and flows too.   Do not get caught up in pop culture depictions of what love is suppose to feel like.  If you are in touch with yourself, you will know when and how you feel about that person in your life.   Because when you clear away the BS we think determines real love it is just you, them and the life you both face together.   I think you can’t love someone if you can’t be real with them and that is where that feeling of being in love comes from, you were being real with your lady and it felt better than you thought it would.      
    “Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.”
    Being in love is in my experience a state of being, that deluded feeling I mentioned in a prior posting.  It is like you are drugged, the air is cleaner, the sun is brighter and everything you consume tastes better than it ever did.   It is mind over matter, an altered state of reality.  Loving someone is real, it is hard work but it is the kind of hard work that you enjoy because you feel better for doing it.   Even when the object of your love does some ish that pisses you off, you can’t stay pissed for any period of time because it would only forestall all those good feelings you have for that other person.   You can’t be mad at them because you want to see them happy and seeing them unhappy makes you unhappy.    Because then who would you enjoy doing all these wonderful things to and for?
    There are all types of relationships and we should never get caught up in making one group somehow superior to others because a successful relationship in my mind is one that best meets both parties’ needs.  Sometimes that is sans love because there are many people who love each other but cannot maintain the relationship.  Love to my mind is the glue that holds things together but there has to be something there to hold together.  In my intimate relationships I have found shared values and shared goals to be equally as important to growing as much as love. 

  • http://wwwinmycomfortzone.blogspot.com/ southernpoise

    CONGRATS!!! So happy for you guys. Black Love, gotta love it!

    So there is a big difference in loving someone and being in love. I've just recently changed my FB stat to "in a relationship". It's been almost a year now, and we finally made it official. I am truly in love with this man. I love everything about him, and he continuously expresses the same. We have so much in common, and just simply work together.  I was just having a FB chat with a male friend last night and I wish I was home so I could paste the exact convo, but we had this exact discussion about love and being in love. If I can remember my thoughts here, I said, I've been in love, and have loved deep, but the difference in what I feel now is the fact that I know for certain, and without a doubt the feeling is mutual. Not that I ever questioned the love of my other relationships, at least not in the beginning, but it became obvious in those relationships, we weren’t equals.

    But in my current relationship, as they say in the bible, we two are equally yoked, mind, body and soul. It’s just a different level than my past relationships; So much more fulfilling. I know this is the man I’m supposed to marry one day. I’ve been married once, and this is so much more. I’m sure a lot has to do with past experience, maturity level, and knowing what’s important in life. I’ve been there, and I feel I know what it takes to make it work, this works. I’m loving being in love truly for the first time ever.

  • Litabia

    I think being in love is being with that one that you can't possibly be without. I thought I was in love short of actually walking down the aisle (we were supposed to get married in July but I called off that week.) I realized that I was in love with the thought of being in love and I wasn't actually in love anymore. I thought about it and realized that I could definitely see us getting a divorce so I told him that it's not a good idea to get married because we've been together for 5 years and it seems like a good idea. I care for him but not enough to devote myself to him for the rest of my life.

    I know I am capable of being completely open to being in love...I don't want to be confused with infatuation with the actual feeling of love. That moment when you love that specific person even for their faults and your mind explodes at the mere thought of that person being in harm. You can be annoyed and/or even angry with that person but the feeling never fades it actually grows with time and don't lie stagnant or dormant.

    I also want to congratulate you on your engagement! :-)

  • Anonymous

    What?! I didn't even know you were in a relationship. I'm so surprised but I am so happy for you. Gosh. Congratulations. I can't wait to see pictures.

    But I feel that there is a complete difference in loving sommeone and being in love. I think loving someone means you'll be a definite friend to them. But being in love combines the physical with the emotional commitment. Being in love also includes monogamy because you probably wouldn't think your best friend was cheating if they had another best friend. I got love for you and I'm in love with you have two different meanings.

    Congratulations again!!! ;)

  • Lonias

    WOW!!! This is what I get for being a part-time sock head!

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I can't think right now so Ima have to circle back to respond to the post...

    SO HAPPY FOR YOU MY CHEEKS HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Naisha

    Everyone thinks marriage is going to be a cake walk but being in love and staying in love is hard. They talk more about it here.
    A Real Look At Marriage: Things Your Married Friends Won’t Say
    http://cocktailsandcognac.com/

    • http://twitter.com/ChloeRayne516 GirlSixx

      It sure is!!  Getting Married is EASY the fun Part -- Staying Married is WORK and lots of it.  *smh*

    • http://twitter.com/ChloeRayne516 GirlSixx

      It sure is!!  Getting Married is EASY the fun Part -- Staying Married is WORK and lots of it.  *smh*

  • Naisha

    Everyone thinks marriage is going to be a cake walk but being in love and staying in love is hard. They talk more about it here.
    A Real Look At Marriage: Things Your Married Friends Won’t Say
    http://cocktailsandcognac.com/

  • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_4MG5K7UOCYM7GN4TH462BH4BFI Clint Brantley

    Yes, being in love is way different than just loving someone. I married the one I was in love with, but unfortunately we grew apart and divorced after twenty two years of marriage... sometimes as time goes on your values change and so does your life... It's a beautiful thing when you find someone you can fall in love with and it works...

  • Lonias

    Have you ever been in love? Yes I have...

    Do you think there’s a difference between loving someone and beingin love with someone? 
    Absolutely...otherwise how would loving your spouse be different from loving your parents?

    If so, what’s the difference(s)? 
    The "in-love" feeling is like a rubber washer in a faucet.  The faucet CAN run without one, but it can get messy.  Couples need the "in-love" feeling to get through some of the work relationship-maintenance takes.  The love we have for our parents, siblings, other family members has blood to back it up.  That in-love feeling is the thing that makes it seem that the same blood is running through each other's veins.

    How many times have you truly been in love? 
    Once

    Do you think people use the word love too lightly these days?
    Yes, but only because you can only define it based on your experiences.  Those with fewer experiences have a harder time defining love. 

    Are you surprised to hear about my engagement?
    O                                                                 M                                                          G

    Do you think it’s “weird” that I was ready to propose before having that in love feeling? 
    No, but that is because your decision lines up with the way you think (or rather the little I know about the way you think).

    Have you ever been in a relationship where you loved the person but wasn’t in love?
    Yes (more like one of those "half" relationships) 

    Do you have to be in love to be happy in a relationship?
    No
    I don't mean any harm in putting it this way, but the world is full of the happy and the ignorant.  You can't miss what you don't know you lack.

  • Lonias

    Have you ever been in love? Yes I have...

    Do you think there’s a difference between loving someone and beingin love with someone? 
    Absolutely...otherwise how would loving your spouse be different from loving your parents?

    If so, what’s the difference(s)? 
    The "in-love" feeling is like a rubber washer in a faucet.  The faucet CAN run without one, but it can get messy.  Couples need the "in-love" feeling to get through some of the work relationship-maintenance takes.  The love we have for our parents, siblings, other family members has blood to back it up.  That in-love feeling is the thing that makes it seem that the same blood is running through each other's veins.

    How many times have you truly been in love? 
    Once

    Do you think people use the word love too lightly these days?
    Yes, but only because you can only define it based on your experiences.  Those with fewer experiences have a harder time defining love. 

    Are you surprised to hear about my engagement?
    O                                                                 M                                                          G

    Do you think it’s “weird” that I was ready to propose before having that in love feeling? 
    No, but that is because your decision lines up with the way you think (or rather the little I know about the way you think).

    Have you ever been in a relationship where you loved the person but wasn’t in love?
    Yes (more like one of those "half" relationships) 

    Do you have to be in love to be happy in a relationship?
    No
    I don't mean any harm in putting it this way, but the world is full of the happy and the ignorant.  You can't miss what you don't know you lack.

  • R.e.D

    CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    There was a whole lot of marriage talk on the blog for a while, something had to be up, now here it is!!!!!

  • STR8NYC.COM

    Real talk...this is has got to be one of the most beautiful blog posts I've ever read. Congratulations to you and Star! Wish you both nothing but the best.

    As for me, I can say very proudly and undoubtedly that I'm in love too. He's definitely different from the rest and I love every part of him...both good and bad.

  • BerniceDickey

    Congratulations! That's where you were when you said you got back to the US late due to the hurricane! Wink, wink!

  • BerniceDickey

    Congratulations! That's where you were when you said you got back to the US late due to the hurricane! Wink, wink!

  • BerniceDickey

    Congratulations! That's where you were when you said you got back to the US late due to the hurricane! Wink, wink!

  • R.e.D

    You know I read this again, and I'm not sure how it is that you were suddenly 'in-love' after proposing. How, in your mind, did that not happen before? Did you just not realize you were in love with her or were you content enough to marry her without the 'butterfly in your stomach feeling?' I'm sort of curious you know. I've been in love with the wrong man, but yet I love a man that I think is right for me. Strange perhaps, but I'm curious as to how for 2 years you weren't in-love. Can you expound a bit without being too personal cause I know you are a private guy....

    • Anonymous

      Clearly it wasn't "suddenly" it was just in that moment of asking with no fear or nervousness in my heart that all doubt (that every man has, man, this is game over) washed away and everything was clear. Besides that, it was a process that I was going through alone because for surprise reasons I couldn't share with her totally for months waiting for the ring and the day that everything i was thinking, planning, feeling could finally come out. She had no clue and the moment was everything I wanted and had planned... 

      I'm sure as I get more comfortable with the experiences I will have over the next few months and years, there will be bits and pieces of my journey shared here as I feel to do so.
       

      • R.e.D

        ok

    • Anonymous

      Clearly it wasn't "suddenly" it was just in that moment of asking with no fear or nervousness in my heart that all doubt (that every man has, man, this is game over) washed away and everything was clear. Besides that, it was a process that I was going through alone because for surprise reasons I couldn't share with her totally for months waiting for the ring and the day that everything i was thinking, planning, feeling could finally come out. She had no clue and the moment was everything I wanted and had planned... 

      I'm sure as I get more comfortable with the experiences I will have over the next few months and years, there will be bits and pieces of my journey shared here as I feel to do so.
       

  • http://twitter.com/Schiffon Schiffon

    Yes there is definitely a difference between a romantic love with passionate, amorous, erotic elements and loving someone. 

    Ideally, you want both to select a mate for who you have both types of love as it helps to sustain a marital relationship. If you're just all hot and bothered but don't having that generous, sincere, I want what's best for you, I accept and love you unconditionally you'll have problems in the storm, as that feeling of being in love can wax and wane. If you only have the "I would never want anything injurious to happen to you, I care for you, I'm comfortable with you" kind of love, you can be content as long as you are being treated well, but you might struggle a lot when temptation comes a knocking as you don't have that "in love" balm that satisfies. You might also find yourself living like roommates as that platonic stuff can have its limits. Of course, this is a generalization. You can be in a relationship either way, but I think the odds of success are much greater when you have most.

    I have been "in love" once and had one person that I "loved". Having experience both, I'm acutely aware of the differences. There was a period in which I believed I was "in love with the person who I actually just "loved". That relationship was very interesting. 

    People certainly through around the word love too lightly. I think it is because people don't have good benchmarks it is easy to confuse a variety of emotions with love.

    As it is a major pet peeve when people give relationship advice/opinions without mentioning their status; I believe it is important to disclose that I'm currently married and was married once previously. 

  • http://twitter.com/Schiffon Schiffon

    Yes there is definitely a difference between a romantic love with passionate, amorous, erotic elements and loving someone. 

    Ideally, you want both to select a mate for who you have both types of love as it helps to sustain a marital relationship. If you're just all hot and bothered but don't having that generous, sincere, I want what's best for you, I accept and love you unconditionally you'll have problems in the storm, as that feeling of being in love can wax and wane. If you only have the "I would never want anything injurious to happen to you, I care for you, I'm comfortable with you" kind of love, you can be content as long as you are being treated well, but you might struggle a lot when temptation comes a knocking as you don't have that "in love" balm that satisfies. You might also find yourself living like roommates as that platonic stuff can have its limits. Of course, this is a generalization. You can be in a relationship either way, but I think the odds of success are much greater when you have most.

    I have been "in love" once and had one person that I "loved". Having experience both, I'm acutely aware of the differences. There was a period in which I believed I was "in love with the person who I actually just "loved". That relationship was very interesting. 

    People certainly through around the word love too lightly. I think it is because people don't have good benchmarks it is easy to confuse a variety of emotions with love.

    As it is a major pet peeve when people give relationship advice/opinions without mentioning their status; I believe it is important to disclose that I'm currently married and was married once previously. 

  • Krystal light

    Congrats!

  • http://spinsterscompass.wordpress.com Spinster

    Girlfriend?  Of TWO years?  And now fiancee?  Clearly I'm slow.  Wow. 

    Is it anyone on here?  (Pardon me for asking.  No need to respond.)

    Congratulations.  :-)

  • http://www.IndieGirlLoveAdventures.com IndieGirlKeex

    First of all, CONGRATULATIONS! 

    Secondly, yes, I believe that the word "love" has become diluted and that people often misinterpret it as the lusty infatuation they feel during the "getting to know you" phase of a relationship.  You may know someone's personality, have a sense of their character & can imagine the potential for a lifetime together; but there hasn't been enough time or shared experiences to allow for much depth to the relationship. *GUILTY*

    What you, on the other hand, are obviously experiencing is something far deeper; that "in love" feeling where you intimately know your fiance's true character as much as her personality and persona.  That only comes from time, experience and open & honest communication.  

  • guest

    Congrats on this big step you're about to take, I wish you many happy years and blessings!
    I’ve loved before… and I’ve been in love once so I guess there is a difference.  I’ve had that beautiful, crazy, do anything for you, always wanna be with you, you make everything grand and beautiful kinda love… thing is, apparently, he didn’t love me back.  I was so “Caught up in the rapture” of him that I didn’t even notice that I was in love all alone.  He was simply there enjoying the ride… and I do mean that literally.  I still have some feelings for this guy, so sad, but true.  Sad because I’m now looking back at what was with open eyes and realizing now, that then, I romanticized every little thing he did and foolishly never acknowledged what was so lacking.  We spent every day together, he would cook for me, be there for me, but only if I absolutely needed him, he made me feel like the sexiest woman that ever lived, but when it came down to anything serious, or my ideas of what our relationship should have been he was totally disinterested.  I always held back on expressing my true feelings, but my actions showed that I was a fool for him, or maybe just a fool for love.   It’s been seven years since we’ve split and although we’re both married now, I know that he still thinks about me too… maybe even still lusts me (I’m sure) because he’s reached out to me soooo many times and although I do get a little excited I always pretend he’s a bother to me and I wish he wouldn’t contact me.  Whenever we do get to talk, or whenever he decides to pop up somewhere I am he often says to me “I know we’re gonna get back together someday”… I feel like maybe he’s saying this to see if I’m still a fool for him but those days are looooong gone; or maybe it’s just that we never got that “closure”.  He’s the one person who had my heart, but now time has made me wiser, and that one sided love thing is not as cute as it was at 18.
    Cue Alicia Keys' "Lesson Learned"

  • Thecocoaluvchronicles

    I'm still super excited!!!! :)  

  • http://www.randomrhymereason.blogspot.com/ Jara

    Congratulations!!! I didn't know you had it in you. :) Best of luck to both of you.

    • Anonymous

      lol